I was having a conversation with one of my friends the other day, and he asked me something that sparked so many thoughts and emotions. He said, 'Kee, I really appreciate you for being a Godly man out loud. Do you ever feel nervous walking in your purpose for God, knowing that people look to you for faith guidance?'
One, I was honored that even acknowledged me as a Godly man because that is something that I’m continuously striving for daily. I wasn’t always here but I’m grateful that I’ve finally gotten comfortable in my walk. But even in my comfort, I’d be lying if I told you that it was easy and that I don’t struggle from time to time.
Social Media has been my biggest struggle because I never want to come off too holy lol Sometimes I catch myself in my head like:
“Should I post it?”
“I just posted a spiritual post earlier this morning on my Instagram story so nah I’m good for the day.”
I never want people to think I’m over spiritual or doing too much but honestly I overcame these thoughts a few years ago, while picking up a friend.
A few summers ago, one of my friends called me one Saturday afternoon and asked for a ride. He’s one of those friends that’s always late so I figured I had a little time to do my morning devotion in the car while I waited for him to get dressed. I was in the car listening to one of my favorite gospel songs. Slim I was in my jam too, in full out worship. I’m not sure if I’m the only one, but I just feel like “The Holy Spirit Wifi” in the car be on 1,000. Y’all ever sit in the car and just have that good cry/ worship? Lol
Anyways, while I’m singing my heart out to Marvin Sapp’s “Never Would Have Made It All” of a sudden, my friend came out of the house and as soon as He got to the door, I tried to hurry up and change the song lol. I tried to simultaneously wipe the tears off my face while trying to change the song to Lil Baby or something that was more culturally relevant trying to appease (or one would even say “impress”) him. At least that’s what I thought anyway!
I went home later that night and realized that I was suppressing my faith for the approval of others. I just had to accept the fact that this is who I am at the core and it is what it is. That was a huge turning point in my life and in my walk with Christ. Simply just accepting the call. Sometimes the hardest part is just saying yes slim lol but I was tired of halfway locking in with my walk with Christ. Eventually I had to pick a side!
As I continued to settle in my walk, I began to recognize my influence. You’ll be surprised at how many people are actually watching you and inspired by how you move. But I want my life to be an inspiration to draw closer to God not further away.
I just want to leave you with this question, If people were to see your life, what would they see?
I used to be thrown off every time someone would call me a pastor or church boy lol, but at this point I’d rather be known as a man after God’s own heart than a “Fly Guy” or someone with “Motion.” I’d rather have motion with Christ.
I just want to encourage and remind us that God didn’t give us the influence and light that we have for no reason. Someone, somewhere is in a room full of darkness waiting for us to turn our light on. That scripture that we post, that invite to church that we send, can be someone’s breakthrough. But their breakthrough is dependent on our obedience. So the next time we are contemplating sharing the gospel, don’t hesitate because of what someone else may think or say. Remember it’s bigger than us. We might be the only source of Jesus someone receives.
